October 31, 2011

"On my dying day"




Lay down your broken head
I can see you cry away your life
Fall like you fell from grace
Soft, but sweetly say
This is my dying day

And if you don't mind
I would like to
Fly
Fly far away
That's all I wanna do is
Fly
Fly far my way
That's all I'm gonna do
On my dying day

Live
Like you never have
Take in all you can
Before the wind decides
To lead like a Mother
Please
Don't let go of my hand
On my dying day

And if you don't mind
I would like to
Fly
Fly far away
That's all I wanna do is
Fly
Fly in my own way
Where nobody can touch me
Nobody can

I'm flying
Flying my own way
That's all I want to do
On my dying day

I'm shaken by the cold of the roses that we grow
To give our heads a happy state of mind

And all I need to know
Is where I can go
If you lock me out and leave me here to die

I will fly
Fly far away
That's all I wanna do is
Fly on
Fly in my own way
Where nobody can touch me
Nobody can

I'm flying
So far away
That's all I want to do
On my dying day
On my dying day
On my dying day

I love this song! And on my dying day I would like to fly away too...

<3

October 23, 2011


...having a dog.
...Morocco.
...my life in high school, or my life in Bergen, or something like that.
...many of my friends, living all over Norway and Europe.
...having faith in myself.
...the relationship I used to have with my father.
...the relationship I used to have with all of my familymembers.
...having some kind of "normal" family.
...having plans for x-mas.
...having motivation for school.

<3

October 20, 2011

Oh joy!

I bought new books!! <3
Julie Buxbaum - The opposite of love
Khaled Hosseini - A thousand splendid suns
Paulo Coelho - The Alchymist
Heather Gudenkauf - The weight of silence
Lori Lansens - Rush home road
Gunnhild Corwin - Ida's dans (I was unable to find the English title, and I don't even know if the book is translated into English)
Harlan Coben - Gone for good

I'm looking forward to read them all!

A home without books is a body without soul.
- Marcus Tullius Cicero

<3

October 18, 2011

My "25 before 26"-list

Inspired by Kara Haupt, Rebekah Williams and several other bloggers, I made my own list. My list of 25 things to do before I turn 26. This is just for fun, and to inspire and push myself to do some things I have been thinking about doing for a while now.

My birthday is Janyary 28th, so that means I have about 3 months, 1 week and 3 days left. Wow, that's not much at all!

Anyway, here's my list:
1. Have a new tattoo OR make a fancy header for my blog. (Money issues, depends on #12) Header here!
2. Bake breads. -> I did it!
3. Travel somewhere on my own and stay for at least one night.
4. Organize the photos in my computer, and TAKE BACKUPS!
5. Make flavoured vodka (inspired by BirdandFeather).
6. Write a letter to my mum. Done!
7. Spend a weekend in Oslo OR buy a new plant. (Money issues, depends on whether I get a job or not, see #12)
8. Make a home cooked dinner for my roomies. Here is the proof.
9. Read a book.
10. Pass all of my exams.
11. Write Christmas-cards to the people I care for. Done!
12. Get a part time job.
13. Fall in love...?
14. Take more pictures.
15. Decorate my walls with postcards.
16. Order plane tickets to England.
17. Have a theme-party. (I usually don't like themes)
18. Make a book of my favorite quotes. Yey!
19. Make an Oreo Ice cake.
20. Clean out of my closet and give away clothes I don't use.
21. Have a massage. Check!
22. Clean the entire two floors, all of the rooms (except the other bedrooms).
23. Get at least one article or post published in a large newspaper.
24. Organize my playlists in Spotify.
25. Write 5 birthday-cards.

I'm looking forward to this :)

<3

Happy

[Copyright Elisabeth Fjellro]

October 17, 2011

Walk

To keep alive a moment at a time
But still inside a whisper to a riot
To sacrifice but knowing to survive
The first to climb another state of mind
I'm on my knees, I'm praying for a sign
Forever, whenever
I never wanna die
I never wanna die
I never wanna die
I'm on my knees
I never wanna die
I'm dancing on my grave
I'm running through the fire
Forever, whenever
I never wanna die
I never wanna leave
I never say goodbye
Forever, whenever, forever, whenever

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

- Foo Fighters

<3

Bonus - day 1

One step at a time, one thing at a day.

I just got home from the library, where I found a pile of books that I needed...


I posted some cards in the postoffice, I picked up (and payed for) three new pairs of contact lenses, I made a list of birthdays to hang on my wall, I finished a letter, took a phone call that I've postponed for several days, sent an e-mail,
AND wrote a job-application!!!

BONUS! GOD DAMN I AM GOOD!!

Tomorrow I will get myself a job. Two things on my list:
- Deliver my application in person.
- Make a phone call to the mail distribution company here.

October 14, 2011

On my wishlist

I would love to have this photo in a very large size in my future living room... Love <3
[Picture from TamarsPhotos, Etsy]

October 13, 2011


Right now I just wish I could put my life on hold. Or skip a few weeks. Maybe rewind a few weeks, and I would have done things differently.

Right now I suck.

Right now I want things to be done, me to be happy and life to be kind.

I can't point out how much I need a vacation right now, but when I get my grant and loan this week everything goes to rent, bills and to pay down my credit card... I need a job, but I need to focus on my studies. I am doing too much already. Have to cut down on some things. Focus. The weeks should be longer and the number of hours each day should be higher. Or I could just learn to focus, and spend my hours more wisely. I should definitely learn how to prioritize and schedule my things...

Right now I suck. And I'm sick and tired.

Soundtrack of my life right now:
<3 Chill evt. Dagen derpÄ...
- My playlist that I listen to when I want to relax or when I'm full of emotions...
[Picture from Kind Over Matter]

October 10, 2011

Live

[Picture from Kind Over Matter]
<3

- I should be writing on my assignment...
- I'm listening to music from Grey's Anatomy...
- I'm drinking too much coffee, too strong...
- I wish I could just fly away, on some kind of vacation, no matter where...
- I should be getting a part-time job...
- I would like to have a fireplace or a woodburning stove...
- I miss having a boyfriend... Or this one I'm not sure of.
- I am checking out apartments in Oslo, and dream about living there...
- I have to write...
<3

The truth!

"There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever."
- Quote from Grey's Anatomy

This describes me. Me and my relationship to relationships. Or my thought of relationships. It freaks me out, it scares the hell out of me!

I'm afraid of loving.

Soundtrack: Coldplay - Fix You

October 2, 2011

Happy Birthday!

Happy 5th Birthday to one of the best nieces in the world, Andrine!
<3